Man behind the mirror

Jeremiah 1:5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew ^[a] you, 
before you were born I set you apart."

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When was the last time that you looked in the mirror and truly reflected on who you were, where you came from and what kind of man that you are.  Are you delusional in the sense that you feel that you are a man's man and that you rule your world.  Are you an imposter, that is, someone who is someone completely different than what the reflection in the mirror shows.  What I mean is, do you see yourself like noone sees you.  Do you present yourself to the world as someone who you know you really never could measure up to be.  Let's take it in a different way; let's suppose that you have it all and that you find yourself staring at someone who is truly empty.  Yes, you may have a lot of friends (or acquaintences).  You are deemed as confident and in control of your destiny, but deep inside you realize that you are emotionally bankrupt.  Have I touched a nerve.  Okay, how about this?  Suppose you have a nice job, a wonderful wife and beautiful children, yet you find yourself living a dual identity.  If the world could open up your deepest, inner-most thoughts they would be shocked of what would be found:  A liar, a fake, a hypocrite.  Maybe even an addict, someone addicted to porn, or someone who is in over his head in addicitons and/or debt.  Okay, so now we are getting to the deepest, inner-most part of our reflection and now it is time to pierce those inner thoughts, who am I?  

Job 7: 17 "What is man that you make so much of him, that you give him so much attention, 18 that you examine him every morning and test him every moment? 19 Will you never look away from me, or let me alone even for an instant?"  Who am I God, and what is your will for me?  What kind of man do you want me to be?  How can I forget my past?  What does love have to do with any of this anyway?  Through all of this life, you know me Lord, you knew me while I was in my mother's womb?

The time of reflection has just begun.  Now for the next step, be honest with yourself.  Find a Barnabus and a Jonathon in your life and trust them to walk along side of you.  Have them encourage you and hold you accountable to whatever commitments you have made (or in some cases, what vow you have made).  Most importantly turn toward the Word of God, the Bible and read daily.  Pray continually and begin a relationship with the one who does examine you and has said that you are worth His love.  For God so loved you that he sent his son Jesus to pay for your sins and to save you.

What are you waiting for?